Today, my devotional time was on Deuteronomy 4. (I'm going through Numbers and Deuteronomy right now) Verses 9 and 10 say, "Only be careful, and watch yourselves closely so that you do not forget the things your eyes have seen or let them slip from your heart as long as you live. Teach them to your children and to their children after them." I think one of the most encouraging things that people have written me that they are praying for is for our kids to not lose their faith through this time. This isn't an easy thing to explain to the kids. Yes, I know God has a reason, but I don't know what it is yet, and can't tell my kids with confidence what it is. Sure, someone might become a Christian because of this, or someone else might avoid some future suffering that they don't even know looms ahead, but I don't know what it is. So please keep praying that my kids and I don't let the things we've seen God do before this trial 'slip from our hearts as long as we live.'
Amy's had a rough day. She is getting dehydrated and not eating well. She's losing her ability to swallow and can no longer see, which makes eating that much more difficult. When we try to sit her up she often seizes or passes out. 'Why don't you put in an IV?' some of you might be asking. Before Amy was delirious she clearly stated she'd want an IV if she was nauseated and couldn't keep from vomiting, but not if she was no longer lucid or comatose. Just because we can prolong her life doesn't mean that we should. What good would putting in an IV bring? But when we ask questions like that, we have to ask ourselves, 'What good does hovering over her throughout the day encouraging water, mangos, cereal, bread with honey, and apple pie bring?' Somehow that seems right, so we continue to encourage nibbles of those things, though we recognize that we are really doing those things for ourselves not for her.
